Tuesday, October 12, 2010

This must be the huge joke in my life..

i knw u for sooo long and this is how u treat me?

so we are uncomparable to those u knwn for weeks right..

i dun get it.. u can be mad or watever shit at me..

let me tell u..

there is no right or wrg..

i have done what a friend should be doing..

i console u, advice u, concern u, go as crazy as u, hoping one day i can finally see the one that i just known...

but all those negative impact that u have shown me..

even now.. i as ur friend.. have to knw a secret a mth later...

this is worst feeling ever!

do u know what is FUCK U??!! i am ur friend. and it took u a mth later to tell me what u doing??

its not abt disgrace problem or what ever.. bt i just felt that. the distance between us is difting apart.

i lose a friend few months ago. and i am not afraid to lose more...

u cant satisfied anyone.. yes true!

bt that doesnt mean that u can mis-use my trust...

u can have all the quantity of friends in the world.. but u ask them

how well do they knw u?

do they knw what is ur fav food? ur fav place? ur fav stuff?

u ask urself.. how well u knw them??

dont u feel tired just making connection with them?? no offence.. a person who is depriving of sleep.. still wanna go work late night job + hang out with friend VS. go hm after work to rest.. and prepare for next day work got so diffcult meh??

i once work 16 days straight.. i go hm straight after work... given a chance to hang out late is once in a life time.. bt i hate it sooo much because i lose focus at work the next day.

U CAN HAVE ALL THE REASON/EXCUSE/RUBBISH to talk or fight back where u stand

bt let me tell u..

i once have my stand..

this is what i gonna say...

They asked me to give up on u.. but i didnt because i know there is a different side of you.. there is someone kind, nice, innocent and happy soul inside of you..

then this some how senses stroke me when i see the scary part of the outside world. the first person that came into my mind was u.. i am super worried for u.. yet i can be with u 24/7 all the time..

This time round.. i am tired as u are.. u are tired with ur life.. i am too... bt thinking negative wont solve anything.. that is why i am thinking positive.. bt this time round.. all the negative things that is happen is coming shore by shore..

i have many things to talk to u..

but now...

things have change and nver be the same again.

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